Letting go is a process, I hope you'll be patient with yourself. Sometimes it's okay not to belong anywhere if you aren't ready, take smaller steps towards it so it doesn't feel overwhelming.

Thanks for sharing.

Be well

I often stumble over my words when I’m nervous, but I’ve also seriously stuttered on a few occasions (maybe 3?) in my life. Usually when I feel as though the person I’m talking to is judging me based on my background. I know of a guy who one day woke up and couldn’t walk. There was nothing physically wrong with him, but he just couldn’t move his legs. (He recovered eventually once he was emotionally healed.) So I can see how your experiences would have caused you to stutter.

>The teacher waited for the whole class hour for me to say the answer.

That is just plain mean. Cruel. That is emotional abuse. That is in no way a judgment of your worth. It did not happen because there is something wrong with you. That happened because there was something very wrong with the teacher’s heart. I just had to spell that out. You don’t need to hate the teacher, but you do need to be very clear in your heart that it does not in anyway reflect on who you are. Teachers have great authority over students (more than we realize) and it is a teacher’s responsibility to be very careful not to abuse it like that.

As for the desire to move on…I wonder what that is. I feel as though something deep inside me is looking for something more too. Something deep. And I do find that friendships and other relationships require a lot of hard work. A lot of heart to heart commitment…(This last paragraph might not make sense…I’m just thinking out loud.)

I also have to admit that I also have the tendency to get bored of a place or a job after a while and I suddenly want to move or learn something completely new when all the challenge has gone. It’s always a constant battle to consciously tell myself to finish what I have started.

We fear ourselves the most. About not being able to come up to the standards of everyone around us which could end up with rejection and ‘not belonging’ because we are different. At the same time wanting to be different because that is who we are….

Great Story. I sympathize with a lot of what you’re saying, Seppe. It’s hard to find somewhere we’re accepting. Thanks for speaking out. It’s something I’m sure all TKC’s go through.

Thanks for this. The story is very moving, I really feel for this young man who obviously has had a number of adjustment issues. Stuttering can often have psychological (related to social) roots and it tends to be a viscous circle, the stutter makes the person withdraw, so exacerbating the social difficulties. It’s great that he’s found his niche and as the stutter has reduced greatly. The internet really has changed the lives of people who have speech difficulties, it has also enhanced the lives of social networking.

Sue